20th July

再多七天，就是瑄瑄的生日啦！

我早早在上个星期就订蛋糕了。

两年了，两岁了，

真是有够不知不觉的。

她现在不是说很会说话，

简单的都能说，

也懂我们说些什么，

但她就是慢了一点。

可是我不觉得是坏事，

不管她学习慢还是快，

健康最重要，

没必要和别人的孩子来比。

最近真的越大越调皮了，

最喜欢出街，

一说要出，马上到她专属鞋柜去拿她的鞋子来穿。

叫妈咪的时候，Manney~~~~

Daddy, Daaadddyyy~~

瑄瑄的时候，jian jian~~

哈哈，可爱吧。

虽然到现在她都还有自己的语言，

但有时候，我就是懂得她说什么，

但其他人都不懂，

尤其是他老爸，

他们两个最喜欢玩骑马，

在房间里乱喊乱叫的，哈哈。

最近她超级喜欢唱歌跳舞的，

终于看得出是流着我的血的孩子了，哈哈

为什么这么说呢？

因为我超喜欢跳舞唱歌的，

想当年～～～哈哈，少来了。

现在退出江湖了咯～～

在家自己跳就有，哈哈。

最近的我，胖了一点，

过后又瘦了一点，

最近都是白天吃四五餐，

晚上就不吃，

果然很有效一下。

好了，其实现在在和校工锯掉我的橱柜的吧，

发现到原来我的科学室能够收到line，

所以趁现在更新一下。哈哈

不是偷懒哦，是休息！！

好啦，下次见！

19th of June

Finally i upload it today,i almost forgot this place..sorry my best friend blogger..last Friday going to celebrated my step-father's father's day..very happy on that day..he is the one i most respect in this world in my whole life..

他，抚养我成长，健康，整整16年左右，当时虽然我还小，但其实我什么都懂。他是我唯一一个没顶撞过嘴的长辈，我最尊敬的一位。他在我心里，永远是我的爸爸。虽然我们不同姓，但我们的关系，比有血缘关系的人，还要更加好。

谢谢您父亲。虽然我不敢当面和你说，但在我心里面，您永远是最好的。我爱你父亲。^^

p.s: that's not xuan..she is my aunt daughter..haha

Valentine's Day

My plan for Valentine's day?
It's a secret..
Coming soon for it..

Waiting...........................

恨

恨，简直入骨。
做错的，永远都会有报应。

别以为你现在的生活过得很好，
你从来都不知自己有几厚脸皮，
还装着问心无愧，虚伪的脸孔来面对我，
没关系，无所谓，
我会等待那一天，
用我双眼看着那一天你所会得到的报应，
不是我毒心，
我是痛得恨得麻木了。

3rd of Dec

我其实很想回复你的信息，告诉你说：我向你低头，不代表我有错，而你没错。我向你低头，是因为我给我男人面子。我也不想他难做，你可别自以为是了。没有你做我的朋友，我根本不当一回事。你连屎都不如呢~你的朋友确实是多过我，可惜真心朋友，我胜你很多倍。你更没资格说我，你以为你是什么？呸！祝你早日被人甩~~~~哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！！！

23th of dec

Last night is dragon3's wedding party,but we all 8pm just go,what a funny day.Wait husband and friends back from KK,from maktab,until 8pm just arrive Keningau,then today early morning 5am they go back KK already,because have class at 7.30am,what a rushing day.

Actually we argue bit bit in a small small case,just because i ask husband for don't come back cause worried and late already,but he still wan to come back,not because for go eat the wedding dinner,is because he wanna see me,he said that he miss me,i know,i miss him a lot too..Last,back also..haha..

Arrive there 8pm,first we go vege table eat vegetarian food,fast eat finis,then change to other table eat meat,haha!!most funny is i with ah kiong,eat too many Udang,until our mouth so tired to open the kulit,because we dont wan to use hand,if not need go wash hand again,what a lazy people,haha..

Finally,arrive yam seng and cut cake,i with ah kiong guess about the cake,feel like we still small,he say tat was a real cake,but i say no,cause the cake so high,got 5 tingkat o~~~whole white..envy with there wedding party..haha..but mine also not too bad lo..last last last..finis eat then back..

Home,Xuan sleep already,yesterday she hugging her daddy pillow until sleep in,very sweet her face when i saw that,i think she miss her daddy too..last night husband back and hug her,she so happy,when Joel wan to hug Xuan,Xuan eject,how cute is she..haha..

Hug tide husband,and fall in sleep..I miss you..And i love you..

What Is Love?

什么是爱？其实没有答案。不是我不懂，是我不懂怎么解释。每个人都会遇到不同的爱情。狠，伤，甜，痛都有。最近身边的朋友不是失恋，结婚，就是生了宝宝。

今天灵感来了，想对某个人说几句。
其实爱一个人，不一定要改东改西的，当然除了坏习惯。因为最重要的是信任和尊重，也当然要看清楚对方值不值得让你信任和尊重。所以改是可以，但一定要两人一起改，而不是要求对方改掉坏习惯，而自己还是那么的霸道，任性。有些人就是以为控制对方越严，就代表自己很厉害，可惜相反的，这种事情约会让自己的另一半离开自己，那时后悔也太迟了，因为人类的忍耐性是有限度的。

P.S: Sorry this not for myself,cause we are good and happy,even sometimes we will argue because of something else,but we still will apologize with each other,hug each other,coax each other.how to keep your relationship good and happy,that's all on your hand.don't wish us until old still can hand in hand sleep together,i will told you that,WE WILL HAND IN HAND,NO!NOT ONLY HAND IN HAND,IS HUGGING SLEEP TOGETHER UNTIL WE OLD AND DIE!^.^

26th of oct

So fast,very fast,over fast,it's end of October.Working already 2months,i had taste what feel to be a teacher,one word,not easy.Why say so?if you are teach year 1 student,then you will feel that you talking with wall,cause when you told them don't talking too laud with fierce face,not until 5 minute,they will talking like selling fish at pasar,haha!But they are cute,they draw for me..

I feel hate November this year,why?i think who that know about this thing then will know what i am talking about,i hate you!mostly..please la,don't feel that yourself very know my,know what am i thinking about,selfish?记仇?you though only you will?i also will ok..and you never know how was scary when i try to revenge,just like that old man,i think he sick like hell already now,who cares..haha..i don't care..

everyone go out and leave me alone at home for 2 weeks?!in my working day again?!say true,i until now if think about this,i will very super angry,FUOK!!WTH!!if i take care my daughter at home only never mind la,but this is i need bring my daughter go to work again,i work never mind,but how if she wan sleep??!!tired and just sit at there wait me see me finis work??think ba you!talk with me like shit when i asking lagi,ngai diao!long time already i dint say those word,it very suit you!suck..........ZZz..i really stress about this,everyday i going out for release my stress,but until now also have,it very disturb me,sick!yuukkk!!i wan save many many money,buy a house,and MOVE OUT FROM HERE!!!!

14th of oct

Yo~what's up all??boring for my blogger?haiya,can how?my life boring ma..haha..today is my mum birthday,going celebrate her birthday at home with BBQ,my mother,47 years old..but in my mind,she always 40years old..even today i remember she 47,but after few months,i will forget and just remember she was 40 years old,i also dont know why..hahaha..

Mother:
            Mum,sorry that i am not a good daughter.I don't have dad,but i have mum.No people can say me no use or brainless,cause i am my mum's daughter.I still remember when i was kid,mum hit me because fail of exam,talking like shit with her,LOL..If not like that,that not call your child right??Michelle also will do like that with me sometimes when i scold her..Sorry that mum,but i am changing now after become a mum as you..
           I love you mum,Happy Birthday Mother.

Daughter

Debbie Fong

哭泣

有时候，总是会突然掉眼泪，没原因，没结果，我不知为什么。有时候，总是觉得自己很累，快撑不下了，但还是勉强了起来。为了女儿，总是让我‘拼’了命。不 是工作让我累，身边听见无需听见的话，外头听见的传言传语，好累。我想我妈，我想我姐，我安静。侮辱，骂我，恨我，说我，没关系，我忍。自己一个人在房里 哭，总觉得会比较好过。今天脾气不好，不知为什么，好像得罪人似的，心情很不好。总认为，为什么就不能体谅我？为什么是我在累？最了解我的老公，我都不让 他知道我的心情。我恨吵架。发泄？一个星期一次吧，每次都把自己弄得伤痕累累的。最轻松，什么都不用想，只在做工。我不是没有空间，有空间，但少了体谅。 不了解我没关系，但我要求有时候请听我心里想要的是什么。没人有资格说，结了婚的女人不能有自由空间和梦想。我正在向前踏了第一步，我不会再回头。有机会 出息，我尽量出头来给看小我的人。我记仇，那是我的性格，但会让我努力的，拼命的做出别人想象不到的事情。请记住，我可不是很好惹得，不是说我幼稚，但我 就是要给你知道，什么才是真正的高等！

6th of oct

Finally i get my new baju kurung on monday,i love it so much..then next thursday need wear it to take picture with whole school teacher..

nice right?it mean 1Malaysia..see the colour then know..

Happy ^^

Why?because my husband was very care about me..it begin like this..after school,we went to MEE WOO buy Xuan's diapers,after that i going up for buy some glue for my shoes,cause the gum not gum-ing the shoes already,look like got mouth then..those glue stuff at up stair,so i going up and husband go put things into the car,after i found the glue that i wan and paid it,husband tel me:just now you going up got 2 'fan cong' right?they wan see your underwear o!ciu!so hate la..i'm just smile with him and silent..cause i know he was angry..in car,'don't come already,saw those people also hate'..'Home,remember a,no next time,no alone out without me,with friend also cant!make me overbearing this time,i'm so worried about you,so go where must got me,ok?'   hahaha,i'm so happy when hear he say so,i know he care me much,but he never prove it to me,this is first and i will remember it,thanks husband..

Bad dream,not happy

I don't know how to say about my dream,i just don't like and very hate..i admin that i had think it before,but i know it not gonna happen,cause i trust him enough,just sometimes i will think too much because of my hormone..but just now that dream really really suck,hate it!i really don't know what wrong with me sometime,i also don't like it..stop it please..

my first salary

First?i think no lo..hahaha..cause before at home take care baby also got salary from husband..wow!teaching primary 6 student this whole week,trust me,it not a easy thing,make me more headache..i am teaching them 迎宾表演 for tomorrow sunday,i will take picture and share to you guys tomorrow,i am so proud for my own,LOL!

Tomorrow have bazaar at school,that why i need bring primary 6 student to make this show,i like them all,and i feel so proud that they are my first student,i can understand them,cause sometime i can feel that i am one of them,tomorrow,they will be dance a good show for them,fighting 6H and 6I!!

ARE YOU READY??!!

23th of sep

Busy busy very busy day..well,not thing to update actually..i still need to write it,don't make my blogger feel lonely..ok,what i busy at?first,busy for my class background,next friday need use it already,so i need rush rush rush,tired!after work,i learn a lot..learn how to change face with many different person,how to change my talking style..one word,hard!cause i dint use my old school style very long already,actually when i was young,i very pro for change many face,cause i know that live in this world,then must use it..just need to see how use only..haha!i also don't know what am i talking about..

Tomorrow,will going down to kk for go fo tang fu wu,gonna have fun i think..will go with husband too..so..EXCITED!!hahaha..ok,stop typing,i am so hungry now,waiting tapao from my husband..I LOVE YOU HUSBAND!!but i hate that u don't wanna buy new high hill for me..hahahaha..

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我无言，因为你很令人讨厌，厌倦你的一切！你怎么那么的虚假啊？说我？好啊~那你哪一点不难顶？我就算生活在没父亲的环境下，也知道该怎么做人。就算我没有读那么多书，我也知道怎么分你的假。做人做到那么耍心机，所以你觉得你很威啦？也太自以为了吧？看到都讨厌。还以为只有我会那样觉得你，原来其他人也那样说起你。真是丢脸。
说我假？可惜，我只对你假而已。因为你不值得我对你真。

18th of Sep

What a super tired day..well,my face coming out so many pimples,and i miss my face that very clean one,LOL..stress and many think,that make my face like this,plus not enough sleep at all..but never mind la,as they say,i still young,my face still can save and pretty back like before..why they said me young?cause pimples come out means that your whole body still can development,grow..so i dont scare that my face look like this now,i still got people love,hahahaha!!

Oh ya,i get my new BABY..guess what??my new iron hair la..hahaha..my old iron already broken 1 year ago,now i get my new thing,and i very very very superb like love it..hahaha..nice to use too..easy bring along..

how do you feel??hehe..sexy purple,my favorite..but i saw tze shan tag me a photo that her sister's iron just now,ENVY..cause..she had flower logo on it,mine just simple..hahaha..but same use and love it much la..hahaha..


last,i had found that many people hate you,cause your style and every things..dont said that meny people had me,but hate you those people,hate you more then hate me..

Boring With My Stress

Stress,tired with it..all about money..money,money,money..WHY?!i hate those feel,stress until i cried alone,think alone..family?help?what did u guy said before?forget?of what?when need help then all gone and run away,that's call family??!!i'm not blaming or what..i just hate when really can help but still many reason to talk shit..i'm tired to stay and live in this world,SUCK!!!!!!

Work,Busy

我开始做工了，也开始毁容了，哈哈，我的脸保养了整整三年，现在竟然给我出来混，这次跟毁容没两样，没办法，女人就是爱美。才工作一个星期，但我好像黑了一点点耶~怎么办？哈哈。看看我今天做了什么吧。

我的宝贝，给带去学校用，是妈咪做的。
这是我的office用的。

这是今天在学校忙的事，搞得我头昏脑胀的。其实是布置布告栏啦，真的被它搞得团团转。

好了，没什么好说的。我做什么工？学校科学管理员，轻松又好的工作。在那里也算是半个老师，半个罢了，我哪有资格当老师那么伟大啊~哈哈哈哈

10th of sep

What a wonderful saturday,LOL..later need go back to school for clean my office and put up my own langsir,pity,cause my room don't have langsir yet,they need ready many things for me,but nvm la,this work was very easy and free too,i like it..yesterday morning my new table and chair was arrive,wow!got roda de chair,somebody was red eyes that time,LOL..sorry ya,i just follow what my boss said and they give me what then i accept..

So,later need go back school,after that i with carol planing for go shopping at whole keningau area,will be have fun today,but i don't have $$ for go shop,that was the most suck problem,hate it..wait my salary out first~~i will buy what i need!!!wuahahahahhahaha.............

Ok,stop typing,early morning talk shit at here,hahaha...